Every time I wake up I start to think of you. But then I remember and I stop. I have to think of a different person, any person. Someone new. Anybody other than you.
Throughout the day, when my thought drift to you, I stop. Because I'm not allowed. Thats not what I am suppose to do. I'm suppose to forget that you're there and that I'm in love with you.
When my phone rings, I run to it, expecting it to be you. But then I remember, we don't talk anymore and hoping for you is no use.
When I look at the stars I remember how they shined in your eyes, how you gave me a star and how the first time that we met, we layed under the stars, holding each other close. Then I remember and I wish for someone new. Because I'm no longer allowed to wish for you.
As I lay down and start to dream...I start to dream about, guess who? Yes, I start to dream about you. But then I remember and I stop and dream about someone new. And when I toss n' turn and cant sleep at night...Its because I cant dream about you or I think about you with someone new. And I know you know how I feel...because you felt that way too.
I'm not suppose to love you. Thats not what I'm allowed to do. So I must turn away and love someone new. Although that is what my heart is begging me not to do.
