I don't know why

As I sit here in English class
I look to my left and smile at my best friend
He glances at me and grins
How do I tell him I no longer want to be friends?
That I’m in love with him?
But I can’t tell him.
I’m far too shy
And I don’t know why.

I’m standing by my locker and it’s the day of the prom
My best friend walks up to me
“My date’s sick, do you want to go with me?”
I smiled and said “yes”
As we stood dancing to the music I thought “I love you”
I don’t want to be friends. I’m in love with him
But I can’t tell him
I’m far too shy
And I don’t know why.

Graduation day I watch as he receives his diploma
He smiles and winks at me
I love him but how do I tell him?
I wish I had the courage to say those 3 words but I don’t.
I can’t tell him I’m in love with him
I’m far too shy
And I don’t know why

A few years passed and suddenly here I am at his funeral
I’d lost the love of my life
He had been killed in a car accident
Oh how I wished I’d had the courage
To tell him that I loved him
I sat in tears as they read out a section of his High School diary
It said “I love her so much.
I sit here staring at her silky hair and warm eyes..
But I know she doesn’t feel the same as me.
I don’t want to be her best friend. I love her”

I’d lost the love of my life
Because I hadn’t had the courage to say those 3 little words.
So now I say “Don’t live in fear and regret. Tell someone you love them”
You never know what I might happen.

~I got the inspiration for this from a book I just read so please vote or comment. It is much appreciated~