A Wish a Pact a Mistake (act four)

Will she believe
Or will she ask me to leave
Will she take it as a joke
Ask me what the hell did I smoke
Maybe what Natas told me was true
There is nothing I can do
As I picked up the phone
I wondered if she wanted to be left alone
Waiting anxiously while hearing the ring
I remembered the one time she started to sing
It was when we barley met
I was so upset
She asked me what was wrong
I didn’t answer
She asked me to here a song
When she started to sing I felt at ease
Then she asked again but this time she said please
From that day on I knew she would be my comfort
I hung up the phone
I felt so alone
I needed to see her
Maybe this might be the last
I guess this time I thought things through to fast
Things went by in a glance
I guess I had lost my chance
Natas……..Natas……….I know your there
Please I don’t have much time to spare
(Natas touched my shoulder from behind)
How could I see his trick I must be blind
My wish I do not regret
Nor do I see you as a threat
A deal is a deal
And I know on it is my seal
But before I decide to give in please tell her
“You are postponing things”
Can you and I will handover my soul early
“You will give it to me surely”
“But if it speeds up the process”
“Then I will do it none the less”
“This time tomorrow I will confront her”
(at the moment Natas walked back into the shadows)
I need to confide
Just tell her no more secrets to hide
I must tell her I how feel
Since my soul Natas is about to steal
Everything I did was for her
But I didn’t ask her what she wanted
I just flooded her with emotions
I gave her in what I was interested
No matter what she said I insisted
I took are friendship for granted
I love her so much
No matter what now her heart I cannot touch
I took everything for granted
I didn’t know I was pushing her away
I lied to her so many times
I cant blame her if her heart wandered astray
I should’ve been honest from the start
These stories these lies it is what torn us apart
I did it because I thought if she knew the truth
She would become angry and sad
What I did I know is bad
All I want is forgiveness
A chance to start with a clean slate
Maybe then we can be able to date
But I know this will never happen
I have forsaken the one I love
The one I cared for I should held her above
I should of told her from the start
Showing her kindness honesty and compassion
Everything a good person would do with a good heart
I am a beast
I deserve less than the very least
I guess this is my punishment and my torment
I must live with the fact I will never be hers
This very fact causes my stomach to stir
I wish there was a way
So that I can stay
I gave it up without even thinking
But at least I can try to make you happy
I want wish her farewell
And then give in to Natas’ spell
Then begin my journey into hell
I need my comfort
Her voice so soft so delicate
I wish I can go back to the moment where she first sang
Or the time she held my hand when she got on her skateboard
That moment I have always adored
I acted not to like it
But she didn’t buy it
Not one bit
The day she gave me my ring
I knew I didn’t deserve but she thought different
But the moment the will top all others
Was at the hill
Staring into the valley looking at the city lights
But the only thing with a prettier sight
Was her
If I could I would never lie to her again never hurt her
If I would tell Lori thank you instead of being selfish
What would she say
I miss even the moments we would just play
But its to late
I must accept fate
Time moves forward never back
Its my fault that went of track
Being honest is a quality I lack
(Cyril walked towards Lulu’s window)
Good night sweet dreams
I guess this might be the last time were a team
I wish I could of told you this
You are the one
That is why I do not choose another
I swear this I put this on my mother, father, and brother.
(Cyril left a note before leaving)
I hope this can fix any thing
Please god even just a little something.