For Him

I love you,
but I hate you.
I need you,
but I don't.
Don't wanna live my life without you,
but deep down I know that there's no hope.

The love I had for you,
was unlike any other.
The love you had for me,
was supposed to last forever.

You promised me forever,
what a fool I was to believe,
that you meant what you said,
that you'd never stop loving me.

But my promise remains true,
the love I have won't ever end.
Doomed I am to live this life,
without your love, just as a friend.

Too many promises went unkept,
my trust for you's been shattered.
You won't love me always,
lies, that never really mattered.

Your love for me gave me life,
has killed me all the same.
You were my everything,
and for that I am ashamed.

Ashamed I bought your promises,
ashamed I bought your lies,
ashamed that your unreturned love,
could make me want to die.

I hope you're happy with her,
and happy that you've killed,
the one who will love you always,
unlike anyone else ever will.

I love you but I hate you,
my heart, you've sliced with a knife,
over and over again,
taking away my life.

With these thoughts I think,
that maybe you were right,
maybe it was a mistake,
maybe you did ruin my life.