I know its a lie

My heart it bleeds
my heart it breaks
all this pain
it just can\'t take

she says she loves me
I know its a lie
she could\'nt be a mother
no matter how hard she tried

they all tell me
to just give in
but I can\'t do it
I can\'t let her win

I can\'t find a smile
they\'re all long gone
I hate this life
where everything goes wrong

A dog collar around my throat
I\'m about to choke
\"someday she\'ll change\"
what a sick joke

I am facing
a long hard path
I hate being the victim
of all of her wrath

I let her walk
all over me
thers no good ending
that I can see

I try so hard
just to cope
but all I can think about
is my hands around her throat

I\'ll probably end up in jail
for the rest of my life
cause\' I\'ll kill her
just to end all the strife

Sitting here thinking
and wondering why
I am wishing
that she would just die

my heart is black
my world is grey
and yet again
I\'ve had a horrible day