wonderful poem, very dark and compelling!

For me the poem means that she knows she has an illness but shes not helping herself. She figures shes just another social misfit, but she doesn't reilze the degree of her pain. And so one night she commits sucide and everything falls into place....

The reason why I just wrote that comment is because i didn't inted it on being filled with anger, more like filled with sadness, and filled with sometimes even though we see ourself one way, others might see us from another point of view, and when we have a mental illness sometimes we don't want to give into the darkness that we know we are or know we have. And thus falling into the rest of societys outcasts. Now that i've cleared that poem up i'll stop now lol