Unable To Speak By:PaPiZpRiNcEsS

I am trapped inside my words
With my throat stuck to not speak
Your the one who made me this weak.

I force it back
To not express what I feel
Afraid you will make it into a big deal.

The fear of saying what needs to be said.
And being pushed back down.
Groaning and aching on the ground.

Trapping my emotions in battle
To the point where they explode
Then letting you hear what you need to know.

Grabbing onto you before I fall
Do not get mad at me for what you saw.
There are times when I just want to give up,
And let it all go,
But for some reason my inner-self says no.

To not speak is to cry within
How will someone know if I need help?
Letting them feel the feelings Ive felt.
Letting them know the problems with which Ive delt.

Shot with an arrow thats freezing cold.
Taking it for as if I am bold.
For the words to me you told,
Watching and waiting for me to fold.

But I wont show you what it does to me.
And letting you think that you can beat me.
You wanting my eyes to swell with tears so I cant see.

Fighting my feelings everyday.
Not being able to have a say.
Or not being able to tell you this time I want it my way.

You shut me down and push me away.
My thoughts, my whispers, my feelings, my ways...
Are all pushed to the bottom of the sea.
And at the bottom of the sea is forever where they will lay.