A one that I love

I woke up this morning,
Looked around
You weren't there
And I wanted to cry out
"love me, hold me, be beside me,
Be here with me, at least within."
Pull me close, share everything with me, weather good or bad and I'll do the same with tender compassion is all that keeps crossing my mind. It's so stupid how I blushing when I think of you or sometimes even when I see you and how when I think of us growing closer a single tear seems to roll down my cheek. I know so little about you, yet I care so much it confuses me, I don't understand I'm beginning to feel whole once again the pain I have hidden for so long seems to be retreating even now after a good six years the pain of her death, still seems fresh, everyone seems to believe just lately I'm letting it go but no the pain will not still!
Yet when I'm around you it grows numb. I close my eyes and picture myself sitting in a dark room staring at my feet, eyes closed, with a blank expression on my face you appear as if an angle in front of me, tilt my head up and as I open my eyes to see the face of the one who calms it I see your face your beautiful eyes a glowing hew highlights the tears and pain on my face, nothing is said but all understood I reach out my arms and you hold me forever as do I open my eyes again still feeling your warm embrace wishing you were only there. You seem to fill her absence and create a whole new part of me that will always be there. I went to school, floating from class to class thinking of what was said and done that day, not quite knowing hating myself for forgetting. And wondering when I'd next see you hoping the answer will be never. Everyday seems so much the same until I see you, your special; you make something tick that’s been hidden from the truth for so long. It reminds me your not only a boyfriend, your my friend part of my strength to live, my faith for all I believe, my heart, soul and my hopes for all things. I love you, and forever will internally. So I ask you a simple thing, never let me go, hold to me at all times in anyway fit. This said my promise to you is made, as I will do the same for you a one that I love.