I just dont understand

The words I love you
Make me feel weak
And leak out of my sappy heart
Just hearing it from you

Just the once
Tears swelled in my eyes
I was so happy
To have a guy like you

But the secrets have yet become
We went all the way
To 3rd base
What a wonderful taste

Not to have my dad do it
But to have the man of my dreams
Do that wonderful thing
Singing in the shower

But yet everyone told me
That I have to watch out for you
I never listened
But only to those 3 words I love you

You were my first real boyfriend
That I meet over the computer
I meet you once
Thats when my dreams became shattered

We were engaged
You wanted me to have your baby
I was so happy
But how could you do this

This thing to me
To make me believe
That you actually cared for me
I can't believe this

You ex girlfriend Mandi
Came in when we first got together
And you begged for her back
The lack of me becoming

Then you get laid
By anthor chick
You just meet
I start to fade

I found out
That you ask for other girl's pictures
Of them topless
I'm feeling hopeless

You hit on girls
Those are my best friends
If you haven't noticed
You never showed us the real you

Only a fake
All I do is shack
We are getting married
Plan on having a baby

How can you do this to me
I don't understand
Please explain it to me
My friends tell me thats all you are

I yell at her
Saying I choosed you
But than you go to Rachael
And you start to flirt

Asking her to be your mistress
You both break my heart
Though she did not except
I'm going to tell you what I'll do

I'll take this knife, I'll cut open apart of me
You push so far away
With this knife, I'll cut open the heart of me
The hear that cared for you

I can't believe you took me down
I never saw the pain
How could you do me
So wrong

So kill me with the love
That you gave to me
And pact the cut with slat
I want to feel it bleed

I can't believe you would do this
Tell me all those lies for nothing
But I can't let you go
You were my first love

I will suffer through this
Even though I know I'm making a mistake
You want to see me craw
So I'm on my knees

I'm sorry if I made you upset
To make you do this to me
But all I ever did was love you
I just don't understand

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