Internal Struggle

Why is it so dark,
a lack of light,
why should I go,
on a pointless fight.

A quarrel between,
my heart and my mind,
an answer I hope,
soon I will find.

For in my heart,
I know I care,
but in my mind,
I know I can't share.

Because I get hurt,
when I think I can trust,
and it is becoming,
becoming too much.

I long for passion,
a heated romance,
and I want to,
take a chance.

But why,
says I,
do I look to the sky,
every time, it makes me cry?