This is how I feel

Do you know the feeling you get deep down in the pit of your stomach? The feel of excitment and frustration. Excited because you get to see them and hold them and be near them, but so frustrated because no matter what you do you can never be close enough to them you can never hold them tight enough or long enough, and when your not with them nothing else will do. They're all you think about all you worry about and care about.

I get that feeling all the time. Everyday with the possiblity that I might get to hold her. If only in my arms she could stay forever but then we must go. Say goodbye. I swear each time I just want to cry and hold on to her never let her go.

But I do, I have to. It's not a choice we make it's one others have made for us. If only they could see just how much she means to me. How my world would crumble without her. If only they could see and understand that I love her more than they could know. More than I could show. I just hope that she truely knows she is everything to me. I just hope she feels this too.