Afraid of love

I feel so afraid
in a world not like my own
so afraid to let myself love you
so scared to let my heart feel love again
i don't want to hurt again
to feel the emptiness,
the sadness,
the anger,
the loneliness,
i don't want to feel anything again
the feeling of being alone
having to cry every night
wondering where you are
and what you're doing
hoping your thinking of me too
but i know its all just me never you
i feel like i don't want to live
again just take one breath
and one more sad sigh
and just let myself die