Why?

Why every time I see him I die a little inside?
Is he for me or will he make me cry?
Why do I love him?
Why did god put him and me here?
Why do I cry?
What do I fear?
Why can't I ask him?
Why can't I say?
Why cant I tell him, how I feel today?
Why can't he ask me?
What would I say?
Would I cry with joy, or just run away?
Will I grow up happy, or die from within?
Why can't he know who loves him?