Inside..(I hate you)

Have you ever had so much in your head you just want to fuc6ing SCREAM?
Have you ever been torn apart slowly, seams throughout seams?
Have you ever said fu6k it and tried to take your own life?
Or maybe you have thought your pain was too much so you took out the knife

More or less, you have me inside your head
I've been through sh!t that makes me want to be dead
I open my mouth but I close it again
When I do talk, eerie mumbles come to an end

I can't write poems, they are a worthless piece of shit
and I can't hide my heart from your emotional hits
Easier said than done, I say
Try being me...just for one day

No, I wouldn't put you in my position, even if I were to be paid
Your soul itself would die off and your heart would just fade
Why am I even writing this? Does it matter to you?
I won't ever be able to explain nor show what you have FUC7ING put me through.