Telling Myself Lies

What's so wrong with me
Am I that much of an outcast
Why is it I can't find
A relationship to last

Thought I finally got lucky
The day that I met you
Finally someone to love
But did you really love me too

Part of me wishes
My eyes never met your gaze
I feel into your soul
Lost forever in this maze

I don't know what you feel
I only want to know
Did you ever really love me
Please just let me know

Even through the pain
I consider myself blessed
I fell in love with you
Never would have guessed

To truly love someone
The way that I love you
But you don't love in return
I just don't know what to do

Just sitting here waiting
Because I missed the train
Destination anywhere
To get out of the rain

But I am all alone
Why can't I find someone
Maybe if I did
I'd tell myself we're done

But that someone isn't coming
And I have no idea why
What is so wrong with me
Why tell myself this lie

There is no other person
That i can love the same
The way i will always love you
Even if you don't feel the same

I tell myself you might come back
But why bother getting my hopes up
Why continue telling myself lies
With nothing to back the truth up