How longs forever?

I wana see my friends.
But along with them comes the people,
Who hurt me again and again.
And my birthdays coming soon.
And ill have to face my fears,
And along with that comes more tears.
My pain is so real.
But yet I’m numb,
And I can’t feel the pain inside that’s eating me alive.
Yet the tears I cry seem to make me feel alive,
But yet they are so dry.
When I cut there is blood,
But I don’t see it.
People stare,
But I don’t care.
People talk behind my back,
Say things bout me that’s all whack.
They say shit that aint true,
Hurt me bad,
Sometimes I wish I was you.
You smile,
I cry.
You want to never die,
I want to die today.
You have friends, who love you,
I don’t have anyone who is there.
The people who are my friends,
Don’t understand;
And sometimes,
Don’t even care.
The people who hurt me the most,
Are the ones who were never there.
The ones who left,
Disappeared,
Like thin air.
The people I love,
Hurt me the a lot too.
They say they love me,
I give them my heart;
Then they drop it,
And my world falls apart.
My life turned upside down when she died,
All I did was cry and cry.
Now my life is coming back,
I met someone,
Who makes me happy.
I told him I loved him,
I gave him my heart.
He said he’d love me forever,
But if forever ends,
Then my world will fall apart.

So how long is forever?
When will my world fall apart?
Will we be in love until we die?
Or will something happen,
And will I cry?
Will I ever want to die again?
With our love last forever?
Will my life come crashing to a stop?
Will my world fall apart?
If you say you will love me forever,
You better mean it.
Because if my world falls apart,
Then forever will be never.
And my life will go downhill.
So tell me,
How long is forever?
How long will you love me?
My dad once said I’ll love you forever,
But I think he meant never.
But anyways,
How longs forever?

*everyone always says "i'll love you forever" but how many really mean it?*