My Problems

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Confused, Confused
Feel used, abused
Though really, I'm not
I'm on a rough spot
Tearing my heart
I'm ripping apart
Failing to start
Gone, done
The only thing I know is God's son
With me, life's not won
With Him it is, He'll help you a ton

Still, I feel pain
It comes down like rain
I'm going insane
Hope is being slain
Got to get up
But I can't pick up
I got doubt
Gotta get out
Can't help but pout
About this spout
Of crap I'm going through

I go one way, and then the other
No one to help, no sister or brother
Forced to go one way, undercover
Against my father or my mother
Get up, fall down
Lying all around
All in all, it's profound
No sound
In my mind
No time
Just rhymes

I get angry, sorry, but I argue
Don't be mad at me, so do you
You deny, but you do too
All you do it's killing me
Can't you see
How it's come to be
The outcome
It's so dumb
Both of you, it's the sum
Of what you have done
Can't take it back, hun

It gives me fright
Not only in the day, but the night
You don't want to see such a sight
It pulls me tight
In two directions
Strive for perfection
I need correction
So do you, why do you blame?
It's not the only part of the shame
The tongue's not tame
Especially with words that came

It\'s this place
This life, this face
On this path, let's trace
Both of your paths
See the wrath
Of what you've done, I do
Can't stand how you
How you do this to me, it's not cool
I analyze
I can't take lies
I can't tell, you make me hide
Because I hide, that's why I'm shy
Right?

Wait...
You say I'm crazy, and fanatical
Think I'm lost and problematical
Ungrateful, rude, loud, mean
Make me feel like I'm not a teen
Expect me to be perfect
Like a robot workin'
Turning "bad", don't want to be there
Make me feel bad without a care
Let me point something out...

I don't drink, smoke
Use drugs or coke
Don't use alcohol
Write graffiti on walls
Don't get high, use pot
Stay out late, no I'm not
I'm not losing my virginity
Not running and leaving this city
Try to tell the truth, don't steal
Try to keep it real
Don't have pity
Don't like this nitty gritty
I don't do none of that

What's really going on with me?
I'm growing up, I must mention
I have problems, I'm stressin'
Guessin'
I'm confessing
I'm learning my lessons
I'm into make-up and clothes
Not Barbie dolls, and baby shows
Getting the "cool" toys
Checking out the hot boys
Making my own noise
To enjoy

But that's not all
I'm gonna fall
Can't you call
To see the ball
Of emotions inside
Try and ride this roller coaster ride
And feel the stronger tide
It's you, not me
And he
And she

Causing all this
Not bliss
Just kiss
The problems goodbye
Don't make me cry
But for now, take it slow
I can't let go
Gotta sigh
Gotta hang on
You don't understand
I don't understand
But these gotta be fixed
Not mixed

Just let it settle
Let the waves go back
The storm hold in tact
God help me
Tell me
What to do about
My Problems