I'm Not OK!

I'm smiling on the outside
but hurting on the in
Wishing that pretty soon,
My life would come to an end

Wishing that I,
was six feet under dirt
So I finally,
wouldn't have to hurt.

Cutting from pain,
that you've caused in my life
Going physco when I can't find a knife

Cutting with anything ,
That I can find
I can't stop thinking about what happened,
Can't get it out of my mind

Remembering every little thing
that you done ,like it was yesterday
Never feeling like anything,
was ever OK.
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