I LOVE this.
Your descriptions of the sufferage your feeling is a wonderfully successful way to pull the reader into your thoughts, and the way you described the feelings into physical motions was flawless.
I especially admired the lines,
"Plug my ears and pretend to die"
and
"My conscience screams, coarse and fair
Scream, breathe, try, and fail
Words with definitions I live to hate
Inhale slowly, to quickly exhale"
Your words are beautifully powerful that create a dark and violent atmosphere that leaves a beautifully tragic impact on the reader.
Excellent, excellent

Excellent!!!! I praise from my knees! Total 5... If there was a 6, you'd get a 6!!!

I am better, so much better off... dead.

love the ending. lv A, x