I have fears

I hate all these tears,
that are caused by so many fears.

i don't have anyone to help me,
you all say you see.

but you all i know don't and never will,
you don't know how i sometimes wish that i could not feel.

i feel like a clown,
but i could never be one cause all i do is frown.

most people could never go that deep,
i better not think much more of that cause then i won't be able to sleep.

most people say that sleep is what i need,
but i just look at them.then go and make myself bleed.

you all see the outside,
you never really see what i confide.

most of you all say that i will succeed,
and say that i will never follow,just lead.

I'm not leader fit,
and of course you all cannot see it.

but i do have big dreams,
or so it seems.

maybe one day i will become someone,
then i won't hafe to run.

but what if i do end up like a bum,
just like some.

what if they were all like me,
who never did believe.

i might just end up on that street,
just like all that are made of concrete.

maybe i will make it someday,
but i can't really say.

but i wont worry about it cause it's just to day.