You're not alone, never are, never have been.

soo amazing and beautiful!!! if ever u need to talk to someone, im here. anyways, very well written. keep up the great work!
Ariane
-xXx-

Why are you so sad, Nick? What reason do you have to cry the way that you did? I didn't hurt you at all, just did what I thought was necessary and I'm sorry if I hurt you along the way, but how come you never told me about Jami? I was honest with you the entire time, and not once did you mention the fact that you had a girlfriend or whatever she is to you. But instead you led me on. You let me make an idiot out of myself and played me as a fool. I don't know whether I was on my own all along or not, but with my poems I've realized I'm not as alone as I thought I was, and neither or are. Ariane here seems to want to be by your side, just don't hurt her and yourself along the way.

Still Heartbroken,

~Sierra

The knife is safely hidden under my bed because I find no reason to look at it.

Spelled S>I>E>R>R>A. BUt thanks anyways.

lol, its alright, everyone, even my so called friends spell it wrong. Another sad thing is that my own BOYFRIEND, horrible guy, doesn't know how to spell it. Its quite alright though. I'm used to it, don't sweat it.

lol I would have spelled it wrong too if I hadn't seen it everywhere. Thanks for that reference to my poems. Occasionally I write a completely false one, but most of them are true. LOL!! Almost everyone on this site has said they loved my name-I hate it. I wouldn't have given it to anyone or wished it on even my worst enemy. I hope you're not mad at me though for the confusion. I made a complete fool of myself for eveyrthing I've done and Ive learned from this-trust me. Though I don't think you realize how hurt I was by this whole ordeal and still am. You're a lucky gal Jami. Just know that!!! Take Care.

~Sierra

Thanks Jami. I never really knew you read my poems, but thanks. I just don't know how I could go back to being friends with Nick as if none of this ever happened. This isn't the first time this sort of thing has ever happened to me. Over the summer, I met a guy online who goes to a school in my district, and I instantaneously fell in love with him. He was so sweet, kind, understanding, and charming to me. But he was a player. I was friends with 2 of his girlfriends who he was cheating on at the same time with. I was there for everyone and what hurt me most was that I kept my mouth shut, didn't tell him how I felt. I told his girlfriends though and they laughed at me for never seeing him before. I'd watch him flirt with both of them in private chat rooms, while I cried my eyes out wondering how my friend could do that to me. When he dumped them both, I finally let it out. I told Eddie, the guy, that I loved him and it hurt me so bad to see him going on and on like this, seeing him hurt. and he got all silent, signed off, and I waited until 3 o'clock in the morning when he told me that he never loved me like that, though he led me to believe he did. He told me that I could be nothing more to him than an online buddy and that he would treat me more like a sister than anything if possible. And I was soooooo devastated. I never got over it and there isn't a day that goes by that I don't wonder if my life would be any different if he would have loved me. Who knows, maybe i wouldn't have started cutting or anything. I'm so screwed because of it, and this whole ordeal reminded me so much of Eddie. I was his friend, i thought i Was everything to him at the time, and then he gets mad at me everytime I try to talk to him now.

You're right. Girls are crazy if they don't like Nick. I'm sure he's a wonderful guy in real life, but people change from these kinds of problems. I've been destroyed, so now I'm going to have to rebuild the walls I put up, and re-evaluate who I was and who I want to be. Believe me, I do want to be friends with Nick, he helped me more than I helped him. If I appear to be pushing him out of my life, its because I don't know any better or what to do with myself. I'm so confused about everything and its the most pathetic thing ever. And it is my fault that this happened. If only I weren't so IGNORANT!! I believed only what I wanted to believe and pushed the rest aside. Life is so much more complicated than anyone knows. But Nick was closer to understanding me than anyone, but still, there was that space. And now that both of you will read that story and understand me that much more, and I hope you do. Lots of love....

Always HeartBroken,

~Sierra

:*-(, Memories make me cry, particularly this one.

aw, thanks. lol I don't think I'm strong at all, but thanks anyways!! For a while what she said did hurt, but like you said, I realized she knew nothing and so her opinion didn't really matter. Thanks!! lyl hun, ttyl bye!!

~Sierra

Very well written poem. 5*** from me! Between reading both you, and Sierra's poems. I honestly think you two have more than just a friendship. I'm not trying to put words in your mouth but I think your poems to her speak for themselves. I think you have more feelings for her than just friends? I may be wrong but the way you two write poems to eachother sounds more than just friends? Maybe you need to look deep down inside, and really see what you feel for Sierra. You may have a girlfriend already I'm guessing Jami? But again I think you really need to look deep down inside your heart, and see what you feel for Sierra. I am 21 years old, and have been with the same man since I was 15 we are now engaged to be married! When I was your age I use to have feelings for another man but I always looked in my heart to see who I loved more, and I am engaged to the man I've been with for 6 years. I hope you two can figure out your problems with eachother because my honest opinoin is there is more than just a friendship there? Just my opinoin.
~Krystle (Sweet Angel)

At least what I saw wasn't just a part of my imagination!! YES!! I'm not crazy!! lol-this is cause for celebration!!

Hun (Sierra),
Your not crazy. It's not your imagination. I see it. I just don't think he does yet (my opinion again) You know the saying love is blind (it really is.) Both you, and him write poems to each other. He has wrote a lot to you lately. In my eyes he does have feelings for you (just maybe he doesn’t want to hurt this other girl Jami or again he doesn't see it yet) But again his poems to you speak for themselves. If he doesn't come around you are a very pretty girl (I saw your picture in your profile,) with a lot of potential in your life. If he doesn't grab you soon someone else will if they already haven't. If you really love him than keep on trying (NEVER give up on the one's you love.) Nick you better hurry, and grab this girl or your going to lose out on something special in your life! Keep on writing both of you. You two are great poet's. If you two match up, you both would have great work together.. I would love to read your love poems to each other! My opinions again if I’m offending anyone I'm sorry but everyone has their own title to their own opinion..
~Krystle (Sweet Angel)

Nick, you don't write anymore. I never know if you see any of these or if its my fault that I scared you away or something. I'm sorry about what happened. I folded under pressure, but you can't blame me. I'm not mad at you, I know I overreacted. I was just hurt, that's all. And I'm sorry if I hurt you. But please, don't let what I did affect your stay here, or your poetry. You're a fantastic poet and you need to continue writing, for all of our sake. So, please, come back soon! let me know you're okay!!

Take Care, love you lots

~Sierra