hehe! Me especially. I put my knife away last night for good, and I got a little bit of help today from my new bestest friend who used to be a cutter. So, I think I'm set, and she started crying for me not to cut tonight because I went through hell today too.

I've told you about my bf right? Jordan? Yah,....well he intends to dump me on the grounds that I'm "prude" and I don't go around giving guys head. Shame, really, because I fell into a DEEP depression. She was hugging me telling me that she's going to sort things out, but I can't, not even consider, cutting. And I'm telling myself that I can't do this crap anymore, no matter how much pain I'm going through. That whole God thing last night realy helped too. I have my favorite verse/thing-

The Lord is my shephard: I shall not want.
He maketh me to lie down in green pastures:he leadeth me beside the still waters.
He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for thou art with me; they rod and thy staff they confort me.
Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies:
Thou anointest my head with oil; my cut runneth over.
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.

PSALM 23

I love that saying!! Take care chica!!

Love you lots!!

~Sierra

OMG! What an a-hole! Seriously, Sierra, that guy doesn't even deserve you, at all. You are waaay too beautiful and special for him to even look your way. I would kick his a** if I lived in Georgia... he doesn't know what he's missing.

I AM SO PROUD OF YOU! Keep that razor down, hon... You are doing the right thing, I promise. :::Jumps up and down, dancing in victory::: This is just, like, the hottest thing! you have made my day, m'dear! I am ESPECIALLY glad that you have found a connection with the Lord... Psalm 23 is one of my favorites... but i think my all time is Matthew 10:30-39... it's really long, but it sums up everything I'll ever need to know to believe... I know it's super long, but here it is:

And those he predestined, he also called; those he called, he also justified; those he justifyed, he also glorified.
What, then, shall we say in response to this? If God is for us, who can be against us? He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all - how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things? Who will bring any charge against those whom God has chosen? It is God who justifies. who is he that condemns? Christ Jesus, who died - more than that, who was raised to life - is at the right hand of God and is also interceding for us. Who shall seperate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? As it is written:
"For your sake we face death all day long;
we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered."
No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything in all creation will be able to seperate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

I know this was long, but it is all I need to know... I mean, really, if God IS for us, who can be against us??

Sierra, I am so proud of you!!!

*Car*

lol!! I'm proud of myself too. I was so miserable all day and nearly started crying at school because I couldn't believe I was just being used all of this time. I cried when I got home, shortly after I left you that message, because I wonder what would have happened had I gone to the movies with him on Friday. He would have taken advantage of me, and I know it. I hate it. It still hurts. I've come to find that I have so litte, but I have so much at the same time if that makes ANY sense.

But i did read every word of that, and I have to admit, that was truly lovely!!! Just wonderful to know that God isn't someone who will abandon me and that if I do establish a bond with him, nothing can break it. I'm happier just knowing that, but ahhH!! I'll bbs, MOM just came home!! *tear of frustration*

AHH!

love you ltos

~SIerra

great poem n i put down the razor 5 days ago!! hehe n im gonna keep it that way! keep up the great work!

*jenny*

Thank you, Jenny!
Car

This explains the exact way I feel when my closest friend cuts....It hurts so much, I feel helpless that I'm too far away to help....
Mwa!!!

Nice and inspirational write. Great poem, in rhyme. Write on :)

5/5. Take Care, Always Believe in Love.

Love, Amit~

ty both! very much!
*car*

wow that was really good... its like seeing what its likefor the person on the other side..thank u for writing this great poem:)
stay strong always

Thank you!
Car