I wanted to... (Serious version)

I wanted to talk to you
But I was too afraid
That you might reject me
And leave me alone

I wanted to call you
But I hesitated
That you might put down the phone
And never talk to me again

I wanted to write you a letter
But never did
That you might tear it up
And never read it

I wanted to stare at you
But never could
That you might make my tears fall
And never wipe it up

I wanted to know if you're still OK
But never asked
That you might say you're OK
And say because "I'm not with you"

I wanted to hug you
But never tried
That you might push me away
And say you don't need me

I wanted to make you smile
But never made to
That you might frown
and say, "I don't need you"