CHEATING(not slang!)

I’m lying here on the floor
My wrists still bleeding
My eyes still bloodshot
And the 2 empty bottles of pills
Still laying beside me
I’ve done a bad thing
A really bad thing
Why did I do it?
I do not know
I guess I just wasn’t sure of what I wanted
Or who I wanted
I had the most perfect guy
But I had to go and cheat on him
I do not know why but it’s now too late to
Turn back the time and forget that it ever happened
In some ways the alcohol made me do it
It some ways the weed made me do it
But in most ways I think I wanted it
I wanted to cheat on my guy
We had a fight before I done it
A fight over my cutting, spewing, drinking and my drugs
I felt like he was judging me
Which is also why I went to Mason
But I don’t think mason helped me to figure out my feelings
He only seemed to make them worse
Because now me and my boyfriend are having a difficult time
Trying to fix things up
Mason thought it was something more and now won’t give up
I love my man I really do
But it seemed like I wasn’t me when I got with mason
I wasn’t myself
I no that sounds like an excuse but it really isn’t
I will always be faithful to my man from now
I will really try
I love him to bits and to be without him it would kill….

* umm well yeah this poem sucks but it is true1 the other night i cheated on my boyfriend Josh with a friend called Mason. i regret it badly but i no that i wont do it again. umm yeah.....
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