Mark

All those times, I see you in the hall, between first and second,
between fourth and fifth, and all during seventh. I get nervous.
And i know that I want you.
Hanging out with you,
on Fridays and Saturdays,
I know that i want you.
I want you with every inch of my being.
I get nervous around you.

Mark, I know that you will never know,
But I want you. I need you.
You are one of the few that I can turn too.
You are one who is always their.
You watch out for me,
You protect me.
Mark, god, I want you so bad.

I know that I can't ever have you.
You are to infatuated with HER...
I don't get it, but if you love her
then I am happy.
But in case you ever find out,
Know that I won't ever forget,
us slow dancing at A&W at 10:30,
on a Friday night, just hanging.
After Congress.
I remember laughing in your car,
as I yelled at the people making out behind us.
And you saying you had a
newfound respect for my sanity.
I remember you hugging me,
when i was scared.

Mark, I can't believe I am saying this,
But I really truly believe,
I think that I love you.
I just wish you would love me,
as more than a little sister.

*note this is about my realization guy, and um, no he's not my big brother, that would be gross, but he is a VERY close friend of mine who is 3 years older than me, and he acts like my big brother. Like when my aunt kicked me out, he got so mad at her and at me, for not calling him. But, he thinks of me as his little sister, and I am closer to him, than he is with his other siblings...so it won't work out. also this isn't really anything, just me rambling on about him again...Mark, Wo Ai Ni.*