My Last goodbye* i gave this to my boyfriend*

This is my goodbye letter from me to you
Im tired of putting you through all the hurt I have put you through
It started as a summer romance that was bound to end
Cause right after summer school starts again

We were so far apart with distance and time
I was finding it hard to call you completely mine
Even though we would call and talk each and every night

Suddenly but slowly my love for you grew apart
It kept stabbing me like a razor in the dark
I started to like others
& you soon found out
What started as a summer romance ended in doubt.

After many many breakups we got back together again
You said you will always love me
My heart was on its end.

I shared those three exact same words and said forever more
But it seems as if I was the one who always left through that door.
The door that led to heartbreak and pain
Where I would sit and repeat your name in vain

I shed a couple tears for what we had had
I was thinking god ridden. It’s not that bad.
But then we would talk all over again
That’s when my heart would start all over and mend

I kept falling for those words each and every time
but every time I did I was committing a crime
The crime was that I had stole your heart
And left you out in the complete dark.

The problem was I didn’t feel the same
I felt sick of leading you on this way.
So many times I wanted to tell you were through
But every time that had happened I always went back to you

I’m writing you this letter cause I don’t want you no more
And this time I will leave out that door
I will never come back
& we can never talk again
Cause probably just reading this will hurt at it’s end

You will sit here and wonder how I could do this to you?
I don’t know but im sick of these 3 word lies I’m sorry were through

What im saying is coming from my heart
Don’t call me crying, Please Don’t start
You don’t know what this feels like
To tell the one who loves you that you don’t feel the same
I’m sorry, but I can’t lead you on this way

I need to let you be free to actually find someone who is truly yours
Unlike me, I’m a fake, a wh0re.

This might not explain all that needs to be said
But it sums it up.
Please don’t wish to be dead.
Now wipe those tears away
And get done crying
Cause im here to say the final goodbye