Fate did let go...

I'd never forget that someone
who made me feel so special
and loved in a way, somehow
And made me smile when I'm dull

He was there to be my friend
And to be my lover, on the other hand
My phone pal he also was
And in my text mates, he'd never be last

I laugh in all his jokes
And cry in all his quotes
How I wish he never came along
Just to leave me all alone

But, what's true is
The wish he should have never left
And made me feel in ease
So that I'll never have to suffer pain

I loved a guy like him so much
That I hate him when he's gone
a guy who solely touched my heart
whom i loved with no doubt

even though he played me twice
love still conquers what he had done
For still he showed me love
And made me smile so many times

I will always remember him
Especially when I see a phone
For he was the one who taught me to use it
Use it for 3 hours long

Every time he calls it feels so right
with all the stories he shares all night
And the songs he sings for me
With a high pitch tone and hymns

I was his angel
And he was mine
And that he named me
My sweet angel real

A guy who has lots on mind
Whatever he trips, he'll try
And that made him him
And the one i liked to be with

He even once called me babes
And made me call him hun
And that will never change
even though he's gone

Then there is this time
Which he told me to write
Write on a red filler
And that is what was fad

I really didn't know if he loved me real
But that really didn't matter
Until he confessed to me
But that had me shatter

For the past year i loved him
And that i tried to hide
For i was to afraid to show it
Frightened that you'll never love me back

But the week you confessed on me
Seemed just like a fling
For after that it just felt like
Nothing happened... not at all

I was angry
I was fiery
I didn't know what to feel
all of a sudden you disappeared

I felt alone
I felt the world crashing to me
I felt the urge to let go
Wishing that we can be both happy

I had a hard time letting go
Letting go of the most special person I know
Letting go of the one i loved so true
And most of all... Letting go of you....

I had you in all of my thoughts
Everywhere I go, there you go
Everywhere I remember you
You, with a face so cute..

And then all of sudden
Something rushes into my mind
That you told me once
That you have to leave

I almost burst out into tears
Laughing at myself feeling funny
I thought you want me to let go
But, it was fate who did let go

~~to you... whom i loved so much and will always have a part in my life and heart....~~

~tampuhin/gel/angel/089~

for jeff... `first time to have the guts.. to say your name with no doubt`