Unanswered Questions

I'm sitting on my roof
Just thinking about my journey
The wind is so cold I'm numb
Where will this life take me?

I can't seem to stop
Thinking about your position
How you feel like you are to blame
Such a lie, but you won't listen

The snow has started falling now
And as a flake falls on my cheek
I wonder what you are doing this second
I try to talk, but it hurts to speak

Where is your voice?
And where has it been?
How did you stay so quiet?
Why did you fall again?

Questions left unanswered
My only response is the silent snow
I feel so helpless
Lost with nowhere to go

I yearn to hear your whisper
I imagine it in my mind
I know you are getting better
But it's hard for me, this time

They won't let me talk to you
Only family, what a piece of crud
They don't understand how I'm related to you
I'm closer to you than your own flesh and blood

They've never felt the love
They've never cried our tears
They haven't always been there
To console you and your fears

And now they want to keep me from you?
It's not even right
I've always been there for you
To help you win the fight

I am your sister
Your best friend, your wall
Your listener, your shield
And you are my all

I sit here on my roof
Looking out at the snow falling
Listening to the silence
But my heart is slowly calling

Everything is hurting
My soul is tearing apart
It pains me even to breathe
But I have you in my heart

Unanswered questions
Just running through the air
What are you doing right now?
Does it hurt when I'm not there?

Can you hear my heart beating?
Do you miss me too?
Are you even remotely aware
Of how much I love you?

I know I'll talk to you soon
My brother, my best friend
I'll wait as long as it takes
And I'll be here till the end.

**To Zac. I miss you, buddy, and I hope you get better soon. I love you lots!!!**