What I Dont Want You To Know

I want to tell you i love you
every minute of the day
but I'm afraid
you'll just walk away

For your with him now
so happy you seem
you tell me you love him
like its all a dream

Eight months now
i still dream of you
but i know
your thoughts of me are few

You call me your friend
so i stand by your side
however you don't care
how i feel inside

I don't know what to do now
i cant get you out of my head
for hours tears soak my pillow
just lying in bed

Everyone asks me
why i look so depressed all of the time
and i just think of you
how you were once mine

I was told to move on
by everyone including you
so much pain I'm enduring
my heart split in two

Ive met others
along the way
but still every night
i kneel and pray

For you to be mine
goddamn it girl your still on my mind
i reach out in my sleep
and yearn to find

Myself holding you
my heart starts to race
to open my eyes
and not see your face

So friend
this is how i feel
you don't have to question
whether this is real

To make you my wife
is something that would make me happy
without you in my life
i would just feel crappy

But you will not read this
for you i will not give it
just on this paper
it will sit

Your happy with him
I'm glad this is so
for I'm lying
because i still love you so