Pain is hurt

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i see him walking up to the gym, thinking his just another face in the crown, everybody thinks his cute but no not me, all he was to me was a faded memory, never talked to him before i already made up my mind, until i got his email accidentally couldn't believe what i was seeing emerge from the fakeness was the boy who was meant to be my destiny, but he had a girlfriend and was two years older, never talked to him before other than words, i fell so hard for this boy who i once never knew, its been a year and still never talked, still love is hanging over me cant avoid cant hide, i get smashed every night, i try not to love but its naturall, now i don't even talk to him in words cause his girl found out about us, she is a beauty queen and I'm just another face in the crown i know that hell never chose me over her but is it a crime to hope?, sometimes i get smashed so hard by seeing him every day, with the feelings i feel i brake down and cry even end up cutting, Ive never been so in love and i wanted to be in love and look Wat i got i try to climb over him but he stops me, so cruel love is did you make it so i would fail and fall someday I'm sure ill give up n smash and wont get up again as he is the only thing that keeps me going i need to talk to him tell him what I'm telling you, i never want to love someone as much as you the pain burns day and night.

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