A year ago today (not slang)

I try blinking away the tears,
that fall for this day last year,
but they cascade down my cheeks,
like a river of fear.

I try to keep my hurt inside,
Time should heal this sore,
But now a year is gone,
and it hurts me even more

Today last year I had hopes and dreams,
I even had happiness for a day.
I had strength, I had goals,
until you took it all away.

You told me the twisted news,
You watched me break and shatter,
I lost all that kept me alive
but to you that didn’t matter.

I cried for six long hours,
You did not even give a damn,
To you, my past was all I was,
To you, it’s all I am.

You left my friends having to watch,
My motives just disappear,
Because you took the hope of my life,
And replaced it with only fear.

It died a year ago today,
my spirit, my hope, my faith,
Buried by the sands of time,
Kept somewhere so unsafe.

I remember saying “I will not give up,
on happiness and choir”,
It took a year to get it back,
to get to sing in deep desire.

And though it is all in place,
I’m where I’m meant to stay,
I cannot forgive the things you took,
A year ago today.

*** It probably doesn’t need justification but a year ago today ~13th May~ was the day all was taken from me. The person, I can’t forgive is, Waldo (yes another poem about a counsellor, sorry ). I hate what he did to me then and reading my diary makes me realise I still hate him now (I need a new counsellor!!!). I am now back in choir, the reason I could not be is gone and hopefully never going to return to my life. Thank you for reading this poem means a lot