To Sonja...
I cherish the way you elegantly glide your hand over my shoulders,
I relish in the smile you give, I resent you for this emanating beauty,
I resent because I adore your art of conversation, seek your presence, I am intoxicated through you,
Every step you take my tallow heart does follow,
To be met as a pebble in an ocean,
Hurled by the tides of my life now so hollow,
A pattern only to emerge in this trance of a motion.
I resent thee for all this.
An ancient wind, whispering my dreams.
The raindrops murmuring my Story
The shaft of Sunlight emitting my screaming Wish.
The Darkness of night gaining on my patience.
In a way our worlds have both collided
Become shattered like the mirrors of our past,
Images reflected to be perceived as a silhouette,
Sharp and glimmering on the edge with the truth perfectly hidden.
When I walk I hear your voice sing to me
And I wish I could the silence the silence up,
Everything that used to matter doesn't matter anymore
My only wish is that things were like they were before.
When I cried you wiped away all of my tears...
When I screamed you fought away all of my fears..
You've held my hand through all of these years...
When my time has come and my life is done...
It's you that prepares me for what is to come...
Your voice it chases me, driving out all my sanity,
Your hand when it used to caress me, wiped out all my vanity,
Your hair plunged across my chest, to my touch seemingly velvet,
Your life strewn amongst time, by my existence unrendered,
Your body stealing the colour off my lips, and I surrendered,
Your love may not be mine, but why then has it to be by others contended?
You are the one I want to tender, hold in my arms and remember.
You are the one I want to hear saying that I'm yours
You are the one that I want to say is mine eternally.
The affection I could attest proves nothing more than the fact that I'm obsessed,
Through times of my life I realise how much it has meant to be among your company. Through all these times in my existence I will still be determining to decide whether to laugh or lament.
My faith for you remains never-ending, my trust in you incessant,
My lust kept on an unfastened leash, occasionally filling me with shame and regret,
My Agony is under your power, my peace supported by your care for me,
My laugh turning to a cry, with each tear you used to hold hides,
My joy through day no more than pretending, a persistent shift of time,
My presence turning to past, while I work for your attention,
My mention considered a rare gift, while time is rushing by fast,
My prayers unanswered, my loyalty for you smitten again.
My one hope remaining, to see you at the bitter end.
If it all falls apart, I will know deep inside, my dream has come true,
In this life I was loved by you
