It's not right anymore

It doesn't feel right
because when my boyfriend is in sight
i don't even notice him there
i just don't care
my eyes are back on the one that has my heart
for 7 years hes had it from the start
now i don't know what to do
even with a guy that loves me I'm blue
because i know we aren't meant to be
i know he sees
that my heart will be with someone else forever
because me and that person are meant to be together
god i don't know what to do
today when i was hanging with my crew
i seen my boyfriend and i didn't want him around
when he came no one made a sound
i want the burden off my back
i wish i was on crack
then all the feelings would go away
i wouldn't have to worry each day
i want to be single again
i want to feel free to look at guys
because now i definitely wont have anymore cries
god i don't know what to do HELP ME!!