I can't pretend like I used to
we've drifted apart
I dont feel anymore and it's breaking your heart
I can't apolojize to you
and you say I led you on
but truth is I didn't lead you
I just followed along
Yes, I did love you at one point or another
and I still somehow believe we belong with eachother
but my heart tells me now
that we need a break
although I believe that will soon be an awful mistake
I'm writing this down without lifting my pen
but truth is I just did to go against what I said
I contradict myself for no good reason at all
when i know that you'll lift me if ever I fall
You've been my life
for more than nine months at a time
but now something is telling me that I need to grasp mine
I've been afraid to let go
because you'll give up on this world
and our game goes in circles like this DAMNED tilt-a-whirl
Our carnival's been fun
and I'd have it no other way
but Im confused and I dont know what I want for today
I can't say that I love you in fear it's not true
but I still somewhere believe that I'm in love with you
It's not the fans nor the enemies that I want to see
It's your bed and your arms with you always holding me
Forgive me for letting our special thing die
and I promise that I will suffer to try
but even if we decide to let go today
please remember that it's never goodbye
*The carnival part is the whole ICP deal, my boyfriend and I are big fans*
