Killing me

This pain
its killing
I'm grieving
I'm dying
on the inside
and I'm crying
on the outside
this pain is tearing me apart
is just breaking me apart
its slowly getting worse with each day
i never know what to say
i don't want to be happy
because i know ur not
i can't be happy without you
and i know that thats true
cuz this pain is slowly killing me
slowing destroying the happiness i found
with you but it was smashed into the ground
the day u told me u had to leave
those words i didn't want to believe
but soon that day came
and nothing has been the same
and now I'm slowly dying and its softly killing me
being without you
and i know its true