These are my words....

This is my life
It's not what it was before
all the mistakes
one life contained
they all finally start to go away.

I must be dreaming
I must be sleeping
I wish I could stay like this forever
Because Im not ashamed of myself
Unlike that thing I used to be..

Because before the silence it killed me
It made me feel like Im not a person
My screams echoed
and my red tears ran down my face
And I was locked in my head.

This was caused by memories overtaking me,
I just needed someone to talk to..
Then they all finally started to go away.

Now that I'm asleep forever..
I'm not ashamed
Not embrassed
To be asleep.. to be me
Never meant to be like this

Its been awhile since I could hold me head up high
And look into the sun
And into the faces of others...

Well these are my words...
they all finally start to go away