I can't help thinking

Under the moonlight
I hear no sound
But thoughts of you
And how we once were bound
"I love you forever."
You once told me
"I lied to you."
That made me see
You told my best friend
For those six weeks
You used me
And, if only you had a couple more weeks
If this went on
It would be statutory rape
But sense I didn't do anything
Why should I be in this shape?
I can't help thinking
What if I gave up my virginity
Then the age old question
Would he still be with me?
I wish I didn't lose him
he gave me love
But he wanted to do things
And I would always shove
"Stop, don't"
Are those the words I mean?
"Stop, don't"
He made sure I was never seen
Now, as I see it
You molested me
And just to make this clear to you
You had no control over me!