I really do hate you

I wish I could say something to hurt you
I wish I could say something to make you cry a thousand tears and you would never stop
Because that’s what you\'ve done to me
And after I said my dirty remark
Id say "oh I hit a soar spot b*t*c*h!"
Just like you said to me
I'm glad you left
I'm glad you left our wicked house
Because you made it more than wicked you made it misery
I'm glad you left I hope you rot
I hope you don’t find a home to live in
Those suicide threats
I don’t mind so much if they come true
At least ill be away from you
You think ill cry you think ill weep
Well I once thought you loved me
Isn’t that real cheap
Go f*k yourself older brother
But don’t worry I know you’re selfish enough to think the world will come crashing with you
But not even you mother will realize your gone
Let alone you little baby sister

(Kind of second poem but they go together)

Shea:
If you ever read this I was really angry when I wrote it
I loved you more than anyone in the world I’m serious.
And you really let me down
Now I’m not going to spill my heart out on here
Because this is for the world to see but brother I once loved you I thought you loved me 2.
I’m writing this all on here
Because shea I’m afraid to look you in the eye
I’m afraid you’ll punch me there
I’m terrified of you
I’m terrified of my brother and that’s wrong
Shea I loved you
My god I’m so mad at myself for that
Like god look at what a b*st*rd you are
You don’t care about anyone but yourself
Shea look me in the eye
If you loved me like that one time I heard you say it
When mom made you
Why would you hurt me like this?

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