Phantom of my Past

I don't want your apology,
I don't want some revenge.
All I wants an answer,
Of why we had to end?

I have heard all the stories,
The rumors and the lies.
But now I'm asking for the truth,
So I will no longer wipe my eyes.

My friend's believed you cheated,
But that term is over abused.
I wonder was there someone else,
Or was I simply used?

I never asked for anything,
Was never easy nor too hard.
I gave you all with out too much,
Never a thank you nor a card.

I know that I was not the first,
Nor will I be the last.
To nurse a very broken heart,
Watching a loved one become past.

Yet how long will I remain I wonder,
Waiting to hear from you.
Because you just existing,
I hope to wake and find not true.

But you are still here my phantom past,
In flesh, blood, person bind.
And I’ve seen you with another girl,
It makes me lose my mind.

I wonder if she was the one,
She’s so beautiful – it’s not fair
How I could see why you’d chose her
Still I wonder if you care

You told me once
You’d never cheat lie or deceive.
I wonder how many you told
How many other hearts you thieve.

My friends tell me I can do better,
Using what I once used for them on myself.
But I feel like I’ve been taken out of display,
And placed upon the oldest shelf.

So here I am, I’ll say goodbye
And turn around no more.
For chance I see, would never again
Send you knocking at my door.