So called Friends

I thought I had great friends
I thought I could always count on them
Them always being there for me
But I guess I was wishing for too much
My so called friends were never there for me
Always saying shit behind my back
I could never trust them
If I told one of them something,
The rest of the world would know
They didn’t know how to keep their mouths shut
People started blaming me for things
For saying stuff I didn’t
My friends blamed everything on my
Everything that went wrong
It was all my fault
I could never do anything right
I didn’t wear my hair right
Wear the right clothes.
I was all wrong for them
But why did they hang out with me
Because they knew they could make my life hell
And so they did.
Everyday I would go home and cry
They told me I didn’t deserve friends.
I didn’t deserve to be happy.
Well I wasn’t happy at all
I was sad and upset all the time
I wanted out
I didn’t want to be there friends anymore
But I was scared
Scared that they would tell everyone not to be my friend
I didn’t know what to do
I was stuck
I couldn’t talk to anyone
There was no one to talk to
I didn’t want to live anymore
Everything I did, was wrong, or no good
I always asked myself, why me?
What did I do to deserve this treatment?