Life through my open eyes

Life through my open eyes is far worse than i expected. Pain, hurt and sorrow all rolled out at once.

staring at the closed door wondering whats behind it. waiting for the unexpected.

the door that was once open is now shut. my green green eyes are now small sad green eyes.

my laugh is not the same. my trust has failed like my life.
thoughts and memories roll in and out of my mind, thinking what if or a simply why?

could she do that? should he do that? would they do that?
life through my open eyes is like hell through my soul.

my heart is like a map book of all the right and wrong turns.
where the river lays thats where my body is.
i might be alive in body but spiritually and emotionally I'm gone.

the golden sand that sparkles is now where my soul lays. i run for days but am i getting any where?

I've been taught that life has a purpose, but how long must i live for to find that out?
death sounds so much less painful no hurt or sorrow!
times like these make death sound so much easier

will life ever get easier?
will death ever get harder?

please vote and comment it would mean alot even if your mind is telling you, you don't have time, cause in the end i mite not have that time!!!