A Vicious Cycle..

its just another round with you..
all we do is dance around the subject..
never getting anywhere..
lost, puzzled and confused..
both left feeling
twisted and used..
The games we play all just a cover..
half truths and lies
trying to protect ourselves from each other..
never allowing the other in
never completely giving in...
arguments then kisses..
and never full commitments..
always left wondering
thinking and doubting..
questioning..
'Why do this to myself?'..
round and round this vicious cycle takes us..
it brings us round and then it breaks us..
did you ever really care?
or was i just some conquest,
a game as all... a dare?..
looking back on all the memories..
the good and the bad..
its funny how your one action
could change my whole opinion..
oh gosh! how sad..
and just like that I was caught once more..
trapped..lying to myself
Blind-sighted just like before..
Can't seem to let go..
but can no longer hold on..
every tear i shed, makes me ache
and when your not here my heart starts to break..
this tease of a cycle
has broken me..
and i wish you would just set me free..
to let me live my life anew..
to find myself..

..without you..