WHY LOVE

After months I still can't get over my first love, JRG this poem is 4 you.

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Y do I look forward to seeing you every day
When I know that it is impossible for me to hold you again
I walk the halls hoping that if I see you, you would come and talk to me
I see myself running and jumping in your arms
when in fact I know that when my eyes find you my body becomes paralyze
Y do I do everything to get your attention and you ignore me the most
Making me feel like I no longer have the value that I once had
Y are you trying to hurt me when you see I’m already hurting
The internal bleeding from my heart and dry tears no longer bother me
But the thought of not calling you baby is killing me inside
Like a Cancer you spread all over my body and held control of me
You have become an incurable disease that has caused the most harm to me
Although you are the reason of my pain I only desire of being yours again
I still go to bed extra early just to dream of you being by my side
feeling the warmth of your body running through mine
In hope that my dream never ends and I never wake up from this fantasy
Y can’t I forget about you when I know that you have deleted me
y do I act as though I don’t care about you hoping that I fool myself
When I know that I would give up my life to save yours any day
I let the fear of you getting close to me
find the ending to our story
Y did I drive you away from me when I had you
you claimed you were in love with me
and I believe the promise that you were never going to let me go
But when the time came for you to hold on to me the most
you let me go so easily with out a fight
WHY