A Lifetime

Tears fell from my eyes,
Finding their way down my cheek,
My mind was working overtime,
Yet my mouth still couldn't speak,
The pounding of my heart,
Ringing in my ears,
Blood pressure sky high,
As I hold on in fear,

Only 5 day, not a life time,
But 5 days seems like a lifetime to me,
5 days without you to hold,
Without you here to touch and see,
5 days alone without you voice,
Without your kiss or your humour,
5 days completely loveless,
Heart ache growing inside like a tumor,

Silly little images creep into my mind,
I try to push them out time after time,
Holding back the painful images,
Wishing I was certain you'd always be mine,
Each time we meet my heart aches more,
As I continue to fall every time I hear your voice,
Trust is all I can rely on, all I can hold on to,
But if things should change I know I'll have no choice,

I'll have to accept what happens,
To let you go without breaking down,
To release you and hold you in my heart,
To watch you leave without a frown,
The lump in my throat seems to grow,
As I think about you being so far,
But I want you to know I love you,
I'll think of you each day, no matter where you are,

You may not see why I'm hurting,
Don't understand why I've cried on your shoulder so much,
It may not seem a big deal to you,
But I'm going to miss your touch,
Miss that you're not just a short trip away,
That you're not even able to call,
But whether I hear your voice or touch you,
While you're away I'll continue to fall,

I wish you could stay with me forever,
That I could always believe you'll never leave,
5 days isn't enough to make you leave I hope,
But I hope 5 days is enough for you to feel relieved,
I wish you didn't have to go,
Even if it's a short while,
5 days is hell without you,
5 days feels like a lifetime.