7-23-05....

Open my eyes
and look around
my feet are barely
touching the ground..

I feel I'm floating
in thin air
the last few days
are barely there

the night keeps flashing
in my head
my dreams flicker
to him instead

At first just a
sweet embrace
his hand latched mine
with perfect grace

we talked and talked
for hours long
and then we heard
the perfect song

his lips touched my ear
and i stuttered
then they touched my neck
and my heart fluttered

I looked in his eyes
and then kissed his lips
i felt his hand
in my fingertips

he kissed me so gently
so sweet and serene
he kissed me the best
that Ive ever seen

we layed together
he held me tight
and the song came on again
that night

it had to be secret
so he moved to the floor
before he went to sleep
he kissed me once more

now 2 days later
I'm thinking of him
wondering if the same things
are burning him from within

we didn't give numbers
but i know we both pray
we'll be official
maybe someday

when things will look better
to people who know
i hate them for mattering
in my life so

he may be older
but I'm an adult
whatever i do now
is my own fault

i guess it doesn't matter
I'll not give a glance
but i wish i could have
a second chance...