Through the tears I know I’m getting stronger. One day I will cry for you no longer. One day you’ll say hello to me and Ill walk on by. The same way you did to me when you saw tears in my eyes. You’ll call me one day out of the blue. You’ve got yourself into some kind of trouble…I’m no fool. My heart is weak but my mind is strong. Ill have to turn you away, even though its wrong. You promised me that you would always be there. And I promised if you needed me id always care. But you weren’t. So I cant. I wont let your pain have another chance. Another suicide letter falling on the floor, only because I cant take your shit anymore. It may be 10yrs down the road. Or when we’re wrinkled, deaf, and really old. But I cant give you one more day of my life. Not without turning my back and giving you the knife. I love you and I always will. And your memories live with me still. But understand it kills me more to turn you away, than to be an adult and hear what you have to say. It’ll break my heart again & again, but today is the day it has to come to an end.
