I need anger management...

Outside I'm calm and fine,
But inside I'm broken,
Inside its chaos,
Inside it's disaster,
My heart keeps beating faster,
Because I want this feeling to end,
But it doesn't and it goes on forever.

So I'm in this crazy state,
And I can't get my mind off this person
Who just crushed me,
And left me in tears.
I don't know why I'm crying for him,
I want this confused feeling to stop,
But it doesn't, I've been like this the whole summer.

"How am I supposed to deal with this rejection?!!
What happened the love and affection?
Why are we just "FRIENDS" man?
I thought we were more than that!
How can you do this to me?
You know how much I LOVED YOU?!
Don't you realize what's happening here?
HHowcan you say that to the person who's always been there?"

I want to say that to him,
Spit my feelings off and yell every word I have to say,
Although that's not going to be enough for this broken heart,
I just have to say...
HE'S GONNA PAY!!!

**I'm mad, I'm sad, I'm confused, I need help... I'm crushed I'm lost and I'm mad at myself for falling in love...**