I close my eyes and think - why can't i make a sound?
a forever lonely feeling and still you're not around...
i know why too - but that never changes the way that i feel
i just keep everything inside and try to find a way to deal..
i never do - i just pretend like nothing's wrong
and keep doing the things that i do so that we never get along..
i know sadness but anger is all that shows
ad thus it is my reality that no one ever knows...
sometimes i just want to cry because i keep losing this endless battle - why do i have to fight?
i can make the conscious decision between whats wrong and right -
still i find I'm at this place, time and time again -
i know what i have to do now - and i knew it then
and still i choose to hide the real emotions in fear of what the future will ensue
if i tell you what's inside you'll be able to get through
and i want to share that part but fear is in the way
hence the reality that we pursue day after day
i don't want to say I'm sorry because sorry doesn't make it okay
and it doesn't mean a thing but I'm going to say it anyway
but i don't think sorry can change the way things are..
not a single effort of mine has been successful thus far..
so what to do next? .. i have not one single clue..
perhaps give away the very best of me to you?
or maybe keep trying until we make it through?
never felt this way before and i just don't know what to do..
i don't think that we can make it - nope we're just wasting time
i can't pretend to have a love that really isn't mine..
i don't want to confuse you, cause you any pain..
i barely understand myself let alone explain..
but this is the best that i can do..i just think this is the end
and i wonder what we could've been if you had stayed
just a friend.
