In this moment, I don't think you've left me with this kind of emptiness before..
I don't think I've ever been so afraid that you might not love me anymore..
it's like a dream, except this time you've really walked away.
and I know it won't mean a thing so I hold back everything I want to say.
you've never gone away before, who knew I'd miss you like I do.
you see I took for granted all the loving that I received from you.
and it didn't mean I didn't love you, just that I didn't know how deep it was.
it is in your absence that I realize I need your love so much and more because.
who's going to make me smile, who's going to hold me when the whole world's got me down?
who's going to put the happiness in my life if you are not around?
who's going to tell me that I'm beautiful, who else is going to look at me that way?
who's voice is going to allow me to sleep, telling me they love me everyday?
who's going to love me for being me, who's love is always without condition?
who else am I going to run to when I just need someone to listen?
who else is going to ever even come close to you?
...and I know you think that I never loved you but baby I still do.
I'm almost sure that this is it, god I wish things could be the same.
but the hardest thing to live with is knowing I've got no one but myself to blame.
still baby there's just one thing that hurts me more and more every single day.
you see I never even considered the pain I'd cause with just the words I'd say.
never for a moment should you have doubted my love, I gave you no other choice..
my heart wanted to break when I heard your hurt, the sadness in your voice..
until you took it all away I never realized what your simple presence gave to me..
deep down you have to know that being in love with you really made me happy..
see sometimes we say things that we really don't mean, I must be crazy to have let you go..
and it kills me to think that I have a love inside that you will never know..
though nothing can change what this is, or better, all the things that it is not..
and I can't erase neither the hurt nor the pain to you that I have brought..
I just want to tell you what's inside, no excuses, no explanations..
today there's no trying to justify, and not a single accusation..
even if it doesn't matter now, in love there's still a better late than never..
and even if you doubt my sincerity today, you'll remember me forever..
I will never forget what you have done for me, you gave me someone to love..
gave me your heart when it was another I was thinking of..
gave me respect, fidelity and most of all, the deepest love that I have ever known..
all that I could ask for, you gave me the perfect one to call my own..
always tried to please me, make me happy, you wouldn't have it any other way..
and I always had too much pride but you wanted to help me anyway..
though my actions are contrary, I said forever and forever's what I meant..
and even though I hurt you my actions weren't with bad intent..
because the love we shared together is still the best I've ever had..
and no I'm not okay, I don't think I've ever been this sad..
still I know you don't believe me, but who better to defy than you?
I know you'll be okay but I still wish that I could erase all the pain I've put you through..
I'm missing you already, mind and body baby, heart and soul..
can't shake this emptiness off, the void from you had made me whole..
you gave and gave and gave to me but I still continued to take..
I knew it then, baby I feel it now, I've made a terrible mistake..
baby I can't sleep, don't even have an appetite..
worst of all you aren't here to hold me and make everything alright..
I just want to leave you with these words because they're all that I have now..
can't stop wishing I could turn back the hands of time somehow..
but no, this is what I said I wanted so this is what I got, this is my reality..
so I close my eyes because baby in my dreams you are always with me.
