STORY OF MY BROKEN HEART *PART 2*

I tried hard to tell myself that you were no longer a choice
But at the time I would give anything just to hear your voice
You told me that you loved me; you told me that you cared
You told me that you changed and that you would always be there
So then I stopped to think “maybe I’m not being fair”
“Maybe I should give him a chance, and ask him to explain”
Why he brought me so much sunshine and in the end poured down the rain
Days passed, weeks passed and I still had it all for you
Then you told me that you loved me, so I said I loved you too
So that was your second chance to prove it all to me
From the beginning you did it, you were everything you’d said you’d be
During the time I spent with you, my heart began to heal
And I began to believe, that maybe this time it was real
But then you started acting different, and things started to change
I should’ve known from the beginning that it was just another game
So many different people told me the same exact thing
But its always hard to understand something you don’t want to believe
You with another girl, I just couldn’t believe it was true
This time I thought it was really over, that I was over and done with you
But the truth is I wasn’t, I wasn’t over you,
In fact, it was the opposite; I was still in love with you
But I tried to act like I was fine, even though inside I was dying
My smiles were all fake, every morning I woke up crying
Not being able to hold you or even feel your touch
I guess it was my punishment for loving you so much
It was the worst pain I ever felt and nobody understood
They just told me to get over you; they said they knew I would
So I couldn’t talk to anyone, cuz no one felt my pain
I had to do it on my own, pull myself out of that rain
I felt it was impossible for me to just move on
After loving you and caring 4 you, now everything just felt wrong
How heart broken I was, I can’t even explain
My eyes began to water, whenever I heard your name
I didn’t fell like talking, I didn’t fell like eating
I didn’t fell like living, but my heart still kept on beating
I prayed and I prayed wishing I could just let go
I cried so many rivers, so much you don’t even know
After maybe 3 weeks, my tears slowly began to fade
But I still thought about you, every single day
Every day and every night, you were always on my mind
Tears on my pillow, every other day I would find
You asked for me back, and it hurt me to say no
But I knew if I said yes, I would never let it go
So I tried my hardest, to hold it all inside
When you asked if I still loved you, I would just deny
It hurt my heart to say: “I don’t love you anymore”
But I really wanted to move on, and close that open door
And until this very day, that door still remains open
And in my heart I hold: memories of what happened
Memories of “us” replay over again in my head
Since the first day you spoke to me, I remember every word you said
And now every poem that I write, it’s always about you
All the stupid fu**en bullshit, you just loved to put me through
I still loved you all along, and I don’t even know why
But now, I’ve earned to live without you standing by my side

And this is just to say and to prove everyone wrong
When they said I would move on as long as I stayed strong
I stayed strong that’s for sure,
But my feelings remained pure
I know I’ll always have you deep down in my heart
And if had the chance, I would go back to the start
I would make you cry for me
The way I cried for you
I would make you need me
The way I needed you
I would make you love me
The way that I loved you
I would make you miss me
The way that I missed you
But I guess this is how it ends:
In the end we remained friends
Though I’m not sure what kind I mean
From lovers to friends, We’re still somewhere in between